Cauliflower

Dear Bump,

You are now the size of a Cauliflower according to the internet.
Though in my opinion and just from looking at me I would say you are more like the size of a giant pumpkin! 

The letters have been on stand by due to so many things changing in your parents lives. 

We have finally moved into our own little place, though it was stressful, it is also a huge relief. 
Your room looks amazing, it is full of neutral tones and woodland creatures. 
We can't wait for you to see it.
Which (quite crazily) isn't too far away now. 
If you arrive on your due date we will see you in only four more weeks time! 

Over the past few weeks you have given us a few scares which have resulted in tears and hospital visits.
The midwives have been incredible and put our minds at rest by reassuring us that all these 'little hiccups' are perfectly normal.
There is no such thing as a straight forward pregnancy, plus it also means I have some new snazzy stretchy bands that wrap around my ever growing bump...aka you.

Having your due date basically on our doorstep now is making your mum feel so uncomfortable. The waddle, the sleepless nights, and the constant need to graze is ever so real.
Not to mention the twisted pelvis which hasn't helped the situation, but hey it will all be worth it when we finally get to meet you.

If you can do me a huge favour though, can you stay out of my ribs.
It is beyond uncomfortable and there is nothing I can do to shift you. I can't imagine it being that comfortable for you either, so that would be amazing.

The count down is on Bump.
Keep growing (well not too much bigger otherwise I may develop my own gravitational pull).
Keep wiggling as it makes my tummy look funny.
And keep developing into the awesome little human you are.

Can't wait to meet you Cauliflower

The Dreaded Mid-Mid-Life Crisis

Everything is getting odd and there is no sign of it stopping. 

So don’t worry teenagers, the crisis you are going through now (aka puberty) will stop for a little bit, but then come back when you least expect it. Mine appears to have hit me at the age of 25, nearly 26!! 

The Dreaded Mid-Mid-Life Crisis             

         

1.Your skin

When you finally think yeah, I’ve nailed this, I’ve got my skin care down to a T, my make-up is sitting perfectly, but then BAM my skin goes ‘oh hell no’! 
Out of nowhere it decides to mix things up and do things to completely knock my confidence. 
A little dry patch here, a break out there and boom back to square one on how to cope with my skin! 

2. Your Wieght 

When I was younger I used to be able to drop weight a hell of a lot easier. What on earth has happened there? As some of you know I was a chubster when I was little, but as I got older, I got really active, I ran a lot, lost nearly 5 stone and could eat whatever the hell I wanted.           

       

Now it’s a case of if I even look at a piece of cake it morphs into an extra chin. No matter how much exercise I do Food has decided that ‘hey we love you too Suze. So we are going to stick around for a little longer, perhaps in the form of a stretch mark or an extra giggle on your bum, you can keep that, that’s our gift to you’. Cheers food! 

3. You just ache!! 

I can go to sleep perfectly fine but then wake up with a messed up neck. How did me sleeping cause this much damage!?! 
It has got to the stage where I now keep a load of those sticky heat patches under the sink just in case. And let’s just say I literally smell like tiger balm 24/7….sexy right. (For those of you that don’t know Tiger Balm is like a pain relief balm…Amazing stuff). 

       

4. Your hair. 

Oh my hair. Bless it, it doesn’t know what it’s doing with its life either. Back in the day when my main responsibilities involved going out and having fun my hair was just beautiful. Blonde, long and full of love. Now, well now it doesn’t even know how to react to shampoo. 

                                             

As I’m sure you can imagine, chubbing out, messed up hair, aches and pains, I’ve never looked hotter...haha your welcome Beardy. 

Probably the most frustrating for me is STILL not knowing what I want to do with my life. Back when I was a youthful, slim, energetic 19 year old I was blissfully naive. I honestly thought by the time I was 25 I would have my life sorted. 

19 Year old Suze’s Check List 

I would be in a career that I loved (25 year old Suze – Nope)
I would be married (25 year old Suze –Nope) 
I would own a house not rent (25 year old Suze – Nope)
I might have a little one on the way (25 year old Suze –Nope, well not that I’m aware of anyway) 

The list goes on.

I’m still extremely confused as to where my life is going. 

Size 8, 19 year old, full lush haired Suze honestly had no clue. 
Size 14, 25 year old, dull haired Suze is equally in the dark except this Suze has bills, debts, and a desk job haha whoop! 

Don't get me wrong I have been able to achieve some amazing things in my 25/26 years on this planet, but I guess I thought something would have clicked by now. Some sort of guiding star,....I'll ease up on the Disney style wishful thinking, but you get the idea.

     

So my advice is this: 

Find what you love and don’t let anything stop you from pursuing it! 
If you are creative and love it do something in that field...that's my aim.
If you’re a whiz with numbers or a lyrical genius go down that route. 
Don’t and I repeat DON’T do something just to pay your bills! 
As time goes on it gets harder and harder to break that cycle! 
Trust me! 

Being an adult isn’t all doom and gloom as this post may suggest. We get to stay up late, we get to have a cheeky drink now and then, and we get to do the angry disapproving look if someone is being too loud on the train….ok I’m not selling this very well. 
But just know that if you are my age, or slightly older or slightly younger, and you haven’t figured it all out yet, then don’t worry, you are not the only one. 

Life is what you make of it and I’m sure as hell not going to stay in this rut.

So this is a shout out to all you Mid-Mid-Life Crisis sufferers out there. 

Stay strong, do what you love and just know you are not alone!!