Avocado

Dear Bump,

16 weeks we have now been growing and learning together.
You how to wiggle, blink and developing to the size of an avocado.
Me...well just generally growing, you are turning in to quite the bump.

We have finally seen you in your first scan, and of course because I have turned into a blubbering mess these past few months, I obviously cried.
With all your little movements on the screen those happy tears turned into giggles, which made you flip over like a little jumping bean.
With every laugh another rotation so I have to say sorry for all the flips and turns on our first encounter.

Your little face has already developed and even in blurry black and white you are the cutest thing your Dad and I have ever seen.

The peeing and the headaches remain, but thankfully the sickness has stopped which I can't deny is a huge relief.

We are still wondering whether to find out if you are a little boy or a little girl.
Do we keep you as a surprise?
Do we find out so we can come up with a few names for you to choose from?
Who knows.

But what we do know is we can't wait to see you again at your 20 week scan.
To see how our little avocado will have grown even more into the little bundle we can't wait to meet.

Stay warm.
Stay comfy.
And perhaps in a few weeks I'll finally feel you wriggle.

Blueberry

Dear Bump,

You have turned my life upside down, yet you are only 7 weeks old and the size of a blueberry. 
The sleepless nights. The constant need to pee. The never ending hungover feeling. The pressure throbbing headaches.
The nauseous vibe that is hard to shift.
Not to mention the overwhelming need to constantly graze.
We are still waiting to take you for your first scan, and to even hear your heartbeat.
However the love we already feel for you tiny blueberry is like nothing we have ever felt before.

I never thought in my wildest dreams you would appear in my tummy. 
Not because you weren't wanted, but because of a sticky nuisance of an illness called endometriosis.
I was told at nineteen that I would need help to even see if it was possible to have you in my life.
So after weeks of not feeling myself and completely questioning what was wrong in my head, to see that little plus sign filled my life with the brightest of lights in an extremely dark time, and for that I can't thank or love you more.

I will do everything I can to keep you safe and warm until you are ready to see your daddy and I in this strange world. But until then
Continue to develop 
Continue to grow
Continually knowing how much you are loved, cherished and what an amazing miracle you are tiny blueberry.